Category Archives: Grace

Think of the lillies

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Wow it’s been a long time since I’ve been here. As I’m sitting here staring out my front window, in the corner chair that I have claimed as mine–I look into a cluster of leafless trees and gray skies. No homework to be done, Gungor in the background 🙂 and coffee in hand.

So many thoughts running through my head, fighting for my attention. I’m reflecting on a passage we talked about in our small group last night, Matthew 6: 19-34. Do not worry. Easy enough right? This past week it was very easy for me to forget this and let myself fall into the frenzy of being consumed by every detail and possible outcome that could happen. I was at a loss this week, trying to complete a project that was overwhelming, frustrating and annoying to no end; be a good friend, available and patient when I was needed; keep up with all my other classes; and figure out what our small group was going to focus on for the week…in short, this was one of those weeks where all my commitments caught up and joined together. Tuesday night I realized that I was two days away from our small group, had an exam at 8 the next morning, and still had 5 miles to go with this project…and when I let go of the control and asked for help, God opened my eyes and gave me an answer to the question I had been stressing over all week. It was this passage.

The past two days has been full of those moments when all the pieces seem to come together…the stress I’m feeling, questions I’m asking, conversations leading to this week…God has had a plan for each and every one of them.

“And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?” Matthew 6:28-30.

His daily sufficient grace

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My heart is so proud
my mind is so unfocused
I see the things you do through me as great things I have done
and now you gently break me
then lovingly you take me
and hold me as my father
and mold me as my maker

I ask you how many times will you pick me up

when I keep on letting you down
and each time I will fall short of your glory
how far will forgiveness abound
and you answer my child I love you
and as long as your seeking my face
you’ll walk in the power of my daily sufficient grace.

At times I may grow weak
and feel a bit discouraged
knowing that someone somewhere could do a better job
for who am I to serve you
I know I don’t deserve you
and thats the part that burns in my heart and keeps me hanging on

I ask you how many times will you pick me up

when I keep on letting you down
and each time I will fall short of your glory
how far will forgiveness abound
and you answer my child I love you
and as long as your seeking my face
you’ll walk in the power of my daily sufficient grace.

You are so patient with me Lord

As I walk with you I’m learning
what your grace really means
the price that I could never pay was paid at calvary
so instead of trying to repay you
I’m learning to simply obey you
by giving up my life to you
for all that you’ve given to me

~Grace, Laura Story

I just found this song and it has left me in a state of numbness. I left our Bible study tonight with a lot on my mind, both about finals and all the work I have to get done in the next few days, but more importantly some fundamental questions that were brought into light that get to the core of me. As I thought about them more and what this semester has entailed, many conversations getting at this same point as tonight…I’m overcome with a feeling that I don’t understand. Yet there is peace in it, maybe this is where I’m supposed to be…maybe this is where God wants me to be at. I ask him for clarity in my confusion. Just like the foggy streets in the early mornings here, my line of vision is blocked by the fogginess of what’s going on around me. When I ask God, the light, to help me understand and see clearly…we will see what happens…where these questions lead me.