Wow it’s been a long time since I’ve been here. As I’m sitting here staring out my front window, in the corner chair that I have claimed as mine–I look into a cluster of leafless trees and gray skies. No homework to be done, Gungor in the background 🙂 and coffee in hand.
So many thoughts running through my head, fighting for my attention. I’m reflecting on a passage we talked about in our small group last night, Matthew 6: 19-34. Do not worry. Easy enough right? This past week it was very easy for me to forget this and let myself fall into the frenzy of being consumed by every detail and possible outcome that could happen. I was at a loss this week, trying to complete a project that was overwhelming, frustrating and annoying to no end; be a good friend, available and patient when I was needed; keep up with all my other classes; and figure out what our small group was going to focus on for the week…in short, this was one of those weeks where all my commitments caught up and joined together. Tuesday night I realized that I was two days away from our small group, had an exam at 8 the next morning, and still had 5 miles to go with this project…and when I let go of the control and asked for help, God opened my eyes and gave me an answer to the question I had been stressing over all week. It was this passage.
The past two days has been full of those moments when all the pieces seem to come together…the stress I’m feeling, questions I’m asking, conversations leading to this week…God has had a plan for each and every one of them.
“And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?” Matthew 6:28-30.