Monthly Archives: March 2012



You know when you are so excited for something, and it is within your grasp, but still distant at the same time. Well, I’m there right now. Spring break has begun!!! and in approximately 4 hours I will be loading into a van with 10 other students and a few friends to begin our trek towards LA for the week. My night so far has consisted of: laundry, cleaning, Fame, packing, Pizza Schmizza, Mamma Mia…and now I’m sitting with Hercules playing in the background and a friend sleeping on my couch…as I’m watching the clock slowly change.

The anticipation of this coming week does not come without memories, stories, lessons and adventures from this time last year. Here’s to another great week, let’s do this!!


You know spring break is close, and I’m ready to be soaking in the California sun again…when I have no motivation to study, or do much of anything…despite the act that I have an exam in 4 hours. Maybe its the weather, maybe it’s the knowing that we’re so close, maybe it’s me…but it’s just one of those days…when something is off, but you can’t pinpoint the cause or do much of anything to make it better. This song has been on my mind a lot this past week,

Healing Begins, Tenth Avenue North
So you thought you had to keep this up
All the work that you do
So we think that you’re good
And you can’t believe it’s not enough
All the walls you built up
Are just glass on the outside

So let ’em fall down
There’s freedom waiting in the sound
When you let your walls fall to the ground
We’re here now

This is where the healing begins, oh
This is where the healing starts
When you come to where you’re broken within
The light meets the dark
The light meets the dark

Afraid to let your secrets out
Everything that you hide
Can come crashing through the door now
But too scared to face all your fear
So you hide but you find
That the shame won’t disappear

Sparks will fly as grace collides
With the dark inside of us
So please don’t fight
This coming light
Let this blood come cover us
His blood can cover us

No title fits

I want to live like that


Sometimes I think
What will people say of me
When I’m only just a memory
When I’m home where my soul belongs

Was I love
When no one else would show up
Was I Jesus to the least of those
Was my worship more than just a song

I want to live like that
And give it all I have
So that everything I say and do
Points to You

If love is who I am
Then this is where I’ll stand
Recklessly abandoned
Never holding back

I want to live like that
I want to live like that

Am I proof
That You are who you say You are
That grace can really change a heart
Do I live like Your love is true

People pass
And even if they don’t know my name
Is there evidence that I’ve been changed
When they see me, do they see You

I want to show the world the love You gave for me
I’m longing for the world to know the glory of the King

This song, Phillipians 4:6-7 and God’s love have pulled me out of the spin cycle that I seemed to be stuck in today. Thank you God for your love, strength and eyes watching over me…knowing how much I can handle, even when I don’t think I can.

Think of the lillies


Wow it’s been a long time since I’ve been here. As I’m sitting here staring out my front window, in the corner chair that I have claimed as mine–I look into a cluster of leafless trees and gray skies. No homework to be done, Gungor in the background 🙂 and coffee in hand.

So many thoughts running through my head, fighting for my attention. I’m reflecting on a passage we talked about in our small group last night, Matthew 6: 19-34. Do not worry. Easy enough right? This past week it was very easy for me to forget this and let myself fall into the frenzy of being consumed by every detail and possible outcome that could happen. I was at a loss this week, trying to complete a project that was overwhelming, frustrating and annoying to no end; be a good friend, available and patient when I was needed; keep up with all my other classes; and figure out what our small group was going to focus on for the week…in short, this was one of those weeks where all my commitments caught up and joined together. Tuesday night I realized that I was two days away from our small group, had an exam at 8 the next morning, and still had 5 miles to go with this project…and when I let go of the control and asked for help, God opened my eyes and gave me an answer to the question I had been stressing over all week. It was this passage.

The past two days has been full of those moments when all the pieces seem to come together…the stress I’m feeling, questions I’m asking, conversations leading to this week…God has had a plan for each and every one of them.

“And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?” Matthew 6:28-30.