I am leaving for college in 56 days! I can not help but think about the thought of what myh house will be like without me. In my house there are many different opinions of this subject…
Don’t get me wrong, I am so excited to be opening this new door of my life, but I cannot avoid the thoughts of the very thing that I am so looking forward to…being on my own.
Will my house be more peaceful without me? Will it be more quiet? Will things go out of control? Will they want me back?
As the day gets closer and closer, I am getting more and more anxious. In both good and bad ways. I’m exciteid because I get the chance to start over, in a new environment with new people. But the part that I am dreading more than anything is saying good-bye. But this time it will be different….
“Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me”
I’ve given chances over and over…forgiven many mistakes, but now I am at a point of no return.
I don’t like thinking that this quote applies to me, but from where I’m at, it’s true. For many years, I’ve forgiven and just moved on. Maybe because I didn’t have the sense or confidence to say something…but now, just like you, I have developed a voice of my own. And as you have learned, I am not afraid to voice my opinion when concerning certain subjects.
Is this solely your fault? No.
Is it solely my fault? No.
Is it wrong for me to be done? No.
Will I ever move past this? Yes.
When? I’m not sure.
Although I do not like where I have come from, I am not proud that I can tell this story of mine…but unfortunately, it has made me who I am today. Even though it hurts, I am stronger because of it…and I am a better person. I don’t think I will ever thank anyone for these situations, but, without them…I would not be the same person.